I am an open book. I don’t lie, I don’t have secrets. If you ask me for my honest opinion, you can trust that I will give you a brutal truth before I’d give you a kind lie. That doesn’t mean that I just go around insulting everyone, I’ll always do my best to be as kind as possible. I just believe that, yes, the truth hurts but lies are worse
(how can I live anymore?).
That also doesn’t mean that people are entitled to my entire life story just because I’m honest. I will only tell you if I choose to. I don’t have secrets, but I do have privacy.
Like a puppy. I love people very easily and very unconditionally. I defend them and try my hardest to protect them. Especially those closest to me. I also know, however, when somebody is toxic and will remove those people from my life if they are bringing me down. It isn’t easy to let people go and it brings me great pain to do that but sometimes there is no other way.
If something is important or interesting enough to me, I go all in and become enthralled with it – almost to the point of obsession. That can be good and bad. Good because it is a lot easier to focus and learn something interesting if you are extremely passionate about it. Bad because sometimes I can become too interested in a person- the way they act, their personality, and so on. I end up coming off very strong and some people really don’t like that, so I’ve been told.
I always have the kindest of intentions though. It is just a fascination that will pass in time.
The thing about failure is, you only fail when you decide to stop trying. I suck at so many things (including this blog) but I will keep fighting to improve until I achieve the greatness that I know I’m capable of.
“If at first you don’t succeed, try try try again”
In my darkest moments, I have really wanted my life to end. A feeling that is with me on a daily basis, despite my severe death anxiety. I struggle to see the light at the end of the tunnel but I have to keep going. I can’t let my enemies win. I can’t let my goals and hard work go to waste.
Hope is what gets me out of bed. Hope is what makes me see the good in the worst of people. Hope is the reason I am still alive.
Be your biggest cheerleader and never stop being proud of your good qualities.
Farewell, until we meet again.