Advice to me, from me…

I wanted to talk a little bit about some of the mistakes or misjudgements I have made throughout my life and what I would say to myself if I was my friend (or something like that). I’m still very young so I hope I can learn from these things because I don’t want the things of my past to take over my future. Hopefully, somebody else can relate to this. These are just some of the mistakes I have made:

  • Judging people for their mistakes – even if you are right about them doing the wrong thing, give them a break. Realistically, you don’t know what they are going through in their own head. Please understand their decision, and help them back onto the right path when things don’t go well.
  • Being too overprotective with the people you care about – It is good to care, don’t ever stop loving, caring, and helping, but the people you love don’t always want what is best for them. You can’t save everyone. Say your piece, then let them make their own choice, they will find their way when they are ready.
  • Being too overbearing with people who treat you kindly – just because somebody was nice to you that one time, it doesn’t mean they are your best friend. Accept that not everybody will like you as much as you like them.
  • Pushing away the people you should hold close – however, some people do like you as much as you like them, don’t push them away because you are too scared to get hurt again. Let yourself get hurt, the pain is worth it to find a true friend who will stand by you.
  • The countless times I have felt guilty for being overweight – it is okay, as long as you are improving your diet, getting your exercise, and taking care of yourself, it is okay; the weight will go eventually. Don’t feel guilty.
  • Letting what people think of me control my life – stop hiding away because somebody said you are weird, you don’t have to prove anything to anybody. Be yourself. If people can’t see you for who you really are, you don’t need them.
  • Becoming obsessive about the past – you need to move on. You can’t spend days and nights coming up with things you could have said or done. People leave your life, you can’t get them back by wishful thinking. Talk to them, or move on, or both.

“Forget the past but never forget what it taught you”.


What advice would you give yourself?

My Life With Depression & Why I Keep Disappearing (personal update)

This will not be like my usual posts. This is more of a personal update.

When I started this blog, I wanted everything to be positive so I never wanted to talk about my struggle with depression. Now, I see how stupid that plan was because it isn’t easy to stay positive on a blog when everything in your head is negative. Ignoring it didn’t help so I just ended up avoiding work altogether. I would like this to change.

Addressing my depression isn’t about being positive or negative, it is about getting the reality of my illness into the open. And it is an illness. Some days I feel okay, I can get stuff done, I can cook, clean, and work until ridiculous hours of the morning. But then there are the bad days. The days where I can barely move, I can’t get out of bed, I can’t even begin to think about anything.

For a while there, a little over a month, things were pretty good. I thought maybe the depression was starting to go away since I was doing so much work and had so much motivation. But I was wrong. Since my last blog post, I have sat at this computer most every day trying to find motivation to write or draw or something; anything that I could put on here because I love this blog and I desperately want to keep it going so it can improve and grow.

So the question for me to figure out is what do I do now? I really don’t know. Maybe I will do more updates. I could talk more about personal stuff, more about the good and bad days of depression. This is temporary, I don’t know how long it will last but it will end.

 

Reading Bucket List

A Brief History of Time – Stephen Hawking

A Child Called ‘It’ – Dave Pelzer

A Christmas Carol – Charles Dickens

A Song of Ice and Fire – George R. R. Martin

Adventures of Huckleberry Finn – Mark Twain

Alice’s Adventure’s in Wonderland – Lewis Carroll

Bourne Trilogy – Robert Ludlum

Kidnapped – Robert Louis Stevenson

Moby Dick – Herman Melville

Percy Jackson & the Olympians Series – Rick Riordan

Pride and Prejudice – Jane Austen

The Adventures of Tom Sawyer – Mark Twain

The Hunger Games Trilogy -Suzanne Collins

  • The Hunger Games
  • Catching Fire
  • Mockingjay

The Jungle Book – Rudyard Kipling

The Pixar Theory – John Negroni

The Secret Garden – Frances Hodgson Burnett

The Silence of the Lambs – Thomas Harris

Treasure Island – Robert Louis Stevenson


QOTD: What is on your reading bucket list? What books do you recommend?

 

In defence of Valentine’s Day

I do not know who St. Valentine was; I know nothing about him – what he did, when he was, or if he was even a real guy. All I know is he has a day named after him. Like a lot of other holidays and celebrations, this one has most definitely lost it’s meaning. I’m not sure what it started out as, but I have always known today is the day where we celebrate love. This day is generally recognised as the day couples get together and be all lovey-dovey while us single pringles are all alone and miserable. But I disagree with that.

I have never been in a relationship. I have never been anyone’s anything and that’s okay with me. I don’t feel like my life will only be complete if I have somebody to call my “boyfriend” or “girlfriend”. I’m just not interested in going out of my way to find that. What I am interested in, is love. Love is such an important emotion; it makes the world go round. I have so much (probably too much) love in my heart and I love every single person in this world, no matter what. I always see the good in even the worst of people.

A lot of cynical people want to claim that Valentine’s Day is just another reason to spend a load of money, “it’s propaganda”, they say. “You should do nice things on a random day and it will be more special”. That’s all true but the same can be said for all other holidays and occasions. We have this day because what other day of the year do you walk out the door and see hearts and chocolate everywhere you turn? Why is there a problem with celebrating love? You don’t need to spend money to have a good time. You can do DIY decorations, cook a nice meal, snuggle up on the sofa and watch a movie, the possibilities are endless. It doesn’t always have to be a grandiose gesture.

The message I want to deliver is that Valentine’s Day is a day to love. Whether that love is towards your significant other, your parents, your children, your family, your friend, your pet, or yourself – celebrate it. Even if it’s just to say how much you love them.

Love Each Other


QOTD: Do you celebrate Valentine’s Day? What do you do?